Today I am sad. Very sad. I wanted to speak up but there is no one to listen. I am looking some loved ones around but I am alone. But its difficult to just be silent. So here I am.
Happiness are generally short. Or we feel they are short. The reaosn could be because we feel its importance when its not around. And when its not around, then the period looks longer. This week has been the worst week of my life because of multiple reasons that probably I may not share. Life takes U turn. There is no GPS system of lifee which tells you how far and steep is the next turn. It comes random in a minute. You need to make some decisions. Which may be hard sometime. Decisions are never wrong. Its just the result which decides if the decisions taken was right or wrong.
Many a times you get into a situation where neither you can move ahead not you can take a turn back. What to do. Your life becomes standstill and everything looks stagnant. I am in such a situation. I was having fun since last week. It was fantastic weekend. Had been to stonehenge, windsor castle and oxford university. I was tired, very tired as it has been long day.Even then I decided to go to some pub for a drink. I saw a casino on the otherside of the road and could not stop myself to get into it. Sometime I feel casinos has some natural power that attracts you. I have been in casino twice before. I had decided that I will not play but still I played and lost 70 GBP. I think that was probably the trigger of some bad time. It was I suppose predecided. After then I seen only the worse which has taken away my mind completely. Only I am aware that how did I manage the work whole week. It was last week of my business travel, so many meetings were lined up and had to accompalish many things. In almost all the meetings, mind was running somewhere else. Somehow, I managed to complete stuff with very little sleep everyday.
When things go wrong, you simply hope that they turn right asap. What what is right. If you have that answer, still you can put in effort to move in this direction. But if even thats not clear, then it makes the situation worse. You cant do anything. You just let life drives you and can hope.
I would have been fantastic if there would have been rewind button. You just press it, go back and could alter stuff...
Newaz, I think the post has been bit philosiphical on life. I am feeling a bit light hearted and I think I should go to sleep now. Thanks all of you for reading it.
Happiness are generally short. Or we feel they are short. The reaosn could be because we feel its importance when its not around. And when its not around, then the period looks longer. This week has been the worst week of my life because of multiple reasons that probably I may not share. Life takes U turn. There is no GPS system of lifee which tells you how far and steep is the next turn. It comes random in a minute. You need to make some decisions. Which may be hard sometime. Decisions are never wrong. Its just the result which decides if the decisions taken was right or wrong.
Many a times you get into a situation where neither you can move ahead not you can take a turn back. What to do. Your life becomes standstill and everything looks stagnant. I am in such a situation. I was having fun since last week. It was fantastic weekend. Had been to stonehenge, windsor castle and oxford university. I was tired, very tired as it has been long day.Even then I decided to go to some pub for a drink. I saw a casino on the otherside of the road and could not stop myself to get into it. Sometime I feel casinos has some natural power that attracts you. I have been in casino twice before. I had decided that I will not play but still I played and lost 70 GBP. I think that was probably the trigger of some bad time. It was I suppose predecided. After then I seen only the worse which has taken away my mind completely. Only I am aware that how did I manage the work whole week. It was last week of my business travel, so many meetings were lined up and had to accompalish many things. In almost all the meetings, mind was running somewhere else. Somehow, I managed to complete stuff with very little sleep everyday.
When things go wrong, you simply hope that they turn right asap. What what is right. If you have that answer, still you can put in effort to move in this direction. But if even thats not clear, then it makes the situation worse. You cant do anything. You just let life drives you and can hope.
I would have been fantastic if there would have been rewind button. You just press it, go back and could alter stuff...
Newaz, I think the post has been bit philosiphical on life. I am feeling a bit light hearted and I think I should go to sleep now. Thanks all of you for reading it.
